I am a lost post...

I was supposed to post this one last week...i dont' know what happened...

April 14, 2008

I am the approach to the hump...

Everyone has their crappy times, and last week, it was definitely my turn last week. Funny how negative things can really become so magnified inspite of all the good things happening. I guess that's the power of evil. Well, no need to get into the "why's" of why last week was such a sh#@! one, I just need to think of the brighter things and realize that it could be worse. We're all entitled to bad days though, because how would we know what good really was if we never experienced the opposite? So the pity party is over(I didn't really feel like talkin to anyone for a while) and I'm had my drinky drinks to take off the edge.

lebron on kobe...
"I'd give it to Kobe," James said. "What he's done this whole year, to carry that team to the No. 1 team in the West right now. He's playing his best basketball all around. I've watched him the whole year. I saw it last summer when I played with him with USA Basketball and the sacrifices he's made for the team and he's done that with the Lakers."

"I've been quoted millions of times saying Kobe is the best player in our league for the last five years," James said. "He hasn't received the MVP. This is his year I think."
I love it when due props are given. I'm starting to like Lebron, he he he


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Super Mario Bros theme with bottles and an RC car....what will people think of next?

I am the travelling salesman's suitcase...

Dangit...I totally forgot to post a HAPPY B-day shoutout to one of my fav ppl, HAPPY BELATED BEV!!! aka Jezebel ;)!!! Forgive me for not mentioning your b-day that day, even though I posted that day =/ he he he. And we only celebrated your b-day this past weekend anyway! I know I know...excuses, ha ha ha

Currently in the east coast...en route from Boston to NYC. On the Governor John Davis Lodge Tpke in Fairfield, CT...
You gotta love wireless broadband. I would've never really imagined being able to post and be online while I was on the road. Of course, I'm not driving, so I am being quite safe. I'm actually doin work. So hmmm, maybe it's another form of control...damn Matrix. Anyway, the weather out here has been pretty nice. It's definitely just about springtime now. Just a little chilly when I first got into Beantown a few days ago, but nothing out of the ordinary. The weather can change 20 degrees so easily out here from one day to the next. Gotta love the seafood in beantown though, lobster bisque...mmm, lobster...mmmm, scrod....I don't really know, cuz I didn't have it, but it sounds good. I'm excited to be in NYC again, I'll get to visit some old friends and get to have some good eatin again.

20 Things I Wish I Had Known When Starting Out in Life concluded...
20. All these mistakes you’re going to make, despite this advice? They’re worth it.
My 18-year-old self would probably have read this post and said, “Good advice!” And then he would have proceeded to make the same mistakes, despite good intentions. I was a good kid, but I wasn’t good at following advice. I had to make my own mistakes, and live my own life. And that’s what I did, and I don’t regret a minute of it. Every experience I’ve had (even the tequila ones) have led me down the path of life to where I am today. I love where I am today, and wouldn’t trade it for another life for all the world. The pain, the stress, the drama, the hard work, the mistakes, the depression, the hangovers, the debt, the fat … it was all worth it.

Man, I finally got to 20. It took a while, but it's all good. My last post was kinda about life lessons. So it might not be necessary to write a whole final schpeal about this last piece of advice. I should just write "see last post," he he he. But I shall do one anyway...albeit a small one. We all have to walk our own paths. A lot of the time, we already KNOW what we're supposed to and not supposed to do, yet we do it anyway, some of us just have to learn the hardway I guess. But it is important to learn from the lessons of others - the lessons are there for you to take what you want from, and do with it what you will.

Game 2 tonight vs Denver...where oh where am I gonna watch it, and who the hell with? My fellow road warriors aren't really fans, he he he.

and on a random note...
Who is Tyler Dergen?

I am the 366th...

My God time flies...It's incredible how things can chance so much in just one year...
A year go, I thought I had everything all figured out and laid out for me; my plans for the future were set, I felt comfortable where I was at career-wise, was living in LA(albeit at my folks' place, but that was only temporary), drove a Corolla, and on a lighter note(yes pun intended), I weighed about 162 lbs(I know I know...wtf, right?).

If someone were to ask me, do I miss my life from a year ago? Honestly, I would have to respond with a definite, "yeah, I do." Maybe not life exactly a year ago, but maybe a year and a half. I was happy back then...not that I'm not right now...but like I said, everything was different - there was direction, and more importantly for me, I was in love. I'm grateful for everything I've been blessed to experience to this point in my life, the experiences I've had, the people in my life, and everything else in between. There's various points throughout my life that I miss, simply because I know how I felt during those moments, or periods of my life...and why wouldn't I want to be there again? They were happy times - and I cherish those experiences. That's the great thing about great memories...you can remember how you felt, you can briefly "re-live" the moment, and you get to hold on it, even if for just a while. But be careful, because the same light, it can cause the exact opposite of happiness...but that only goes as far as you choose to let it affect you. Nothin wrong with that though, because hey, "...it takes some work to make it work, it takes some good to make it hurt, it takes some bad for satisfaction..." - just don't let it last too long.

Over the course of a year, I've learned a lot of things. Some things I have proabably always known and were reminded of, and others, I'd learned for the first time ever. I was reminded that life is FULL of changes - some that you want, some that you don't want. I learned that you can't push away things you need to deal with and hope they'll just go away - dealing with challenges and troubles in your life through distraction, denial, and just hopin it'll subside is not really dealing with anything at all. I learned that you HAVE to be happy with who you are before you can really bring happiness to anyone else. But most importantly, I learned that it is possible to express your love for another person by letting them go.

As it is often said...life goes on. And now, on April 20th, 2008, things have definitely changed in my life...A LOT. I have been considering lately whether or not I am happy where I am, career and achievement-wise. Have I peaked where I currently am and need to maybe pursue other dreams I have had? Where do I want to go? I don't know...yet - I'm still trying to work that out. I've also been living in Downey for 6 months now, and I drive a new car, also 6 months old. Lost 12 lbs(of course this one had to be covered since I mentioned it in my year ago statements), woohoo! But lastly...in terms of the my life overall, I don't really see too far past each day - I don't have any definitive plans for my future future...save for vacations and friends' weddings here and there, etc etc...but nothing other than that - nothing major. Life is good...could be better...but hey, it's good. I don't know where I'm headed - and it's totally okay. Sometimes the road gets bumpy, and there's a lot of turns, and I might not know exactly where it leads, but I'm enjoying the ride. =p
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"Life isn't perfect." In fact, a lot of the times, life every day seems far from it...and I think everyone willing to share an opinion can testify to that. Life is full of change, and the biggest piece of advice I can share about change is that you gotta roll with the punches. Accept change for that it is...change, and that it is just another lesson learned. Have faith that in the end, life will work itself out, and that anything is possible...

"Where there is light, there is hope."
- Bilbo Baggins
from "The Hobbit"

I am the final games of the season...

I'm in Laker mode again...cuz I'm going to the GAME baby!!!!!! I'm frickin excited. New Orleans...we gotta beat'em tonight. We do.
Jerry West on Kobe Bean Bryant
Gotta love the logo man. He knows what's up.


I wanted to post this yesterday, but not as a link, cuz most people won't go to it. I knew it'd be up on youtube eventually. Probably a green screen effect thing, cuz he would've been in huge trouble w/ the org, but he can still get up. Craziness....

I was gonna post the last of the "20 things...." thing, but I want to write a bit more than just a blurp for the finale, he he he. It's not even that major anyway, I just want to shut down already so I can head out to staples!!!!! Have a good weekend, kids!

WHOO HOO!!!!!

I am the claw...

I dislocated not one, but two fingers at the game on Tuesday. Fortunately, we won. But this damn finger - my left pinky - and now my ring finger too. I set it back right after, but it still hurt like a mother. Went to see the doc and he said that I set it back straight and to be careful, because I'm getting close to needing fusion surgery - which does not sound like something I'd want to have. Finger is pretty purple, so at least it's Laker-colored, he he he. I hate dealing w/ injury...always sets you back. But at least it's not on my dominant hand, cuz typing is already tough enough as it is...

I have always been a staunch supporter of the idea that not all people are meant to be leaders. You cannot force just anyone into a leadership position, regardless of how smart or brilliant or intiuitive they might be. I've seen it done so many times; placing someone into a position of leadership that either isn't capable of it, or worse, doesn't even want it, you're just gonna end up in a bad situation. However, one thing that gets to me is being satisfied with mediocrity...I just don't get it, and I see it all the time. Maybe I have too high expectations? I don't know...just venting. That's all...

Check out this e-mail Jos got from London's VAST coaches. (VAST ia London'a track team)

Subject: VAST London is FAST!!!
Hey just wanted to tell you London is doing very very very well. She continues to excel and perform at an abnormal level. What does she eat for breakfast, I need some:) Who ran in the family, she has got talent!

-Sherman and Adia
Pretty sweet. She runs w/ the big kids now - so happy my track genes helped her out so much, he he he.

20 Things I Wish I Had Known When Starting Out in Life con't
19. Yes, you can do a marathon. Don’t put this goal off — it’s extremely rewarding.
Running a marathon had always been a dream of mine, since high school … something I wanted to do but thought was out of reach. Or if I ever did it, it would be years and years later. Well, I learned that it’s not only achievable, it’s incredibly rewarding. I wish I had started training when I was young and light and fit … I could have had some good finishing times!

Yes, you really can. I ran the LA Marathon in '05 and it stands as one of the most challenging and difficult, yet momentous achievements in my lifetime thus far. It is just as rewarding as he says it is. The feeling of accomplishment I felt after crossing that line at mile 26.2 is undescribable. You gotta check it out for yourself. I'm hoping to run at least one more, because I didn't finish in the time I totally wanted to, because of a knee injury I sustained during training. The feeling is awesome though. It takes a lot of hard work and mental strength, but when you do it, it ends up being worth every minute of hard work you put in.

For a few chuckles...

I am a late night snack...

if there's one thing I truly hate about working late at night...it's that I either get super hungry, or I get a super craving to smoke.

So far...I've satisfied both of those cravings...twice...

I am a well-needed day of nothing...

First off, Happy b-day to Jon Almereezy. Happy b-day brah!

This made me laugh...a lot.


'Twas a good weekend, but as with all good weekends, they must come to an end. And here I sit, Monday...counting the minutes til I can toss my tupperware in the dishwasher and get out of the office.

Of personality tests
Someone sent me one of those online "personality tests" this weekend and I decided to take it. It's not like that last one I posted about, much more simple, and somewhat abstract...

There's only five questions
1. Name the following animals in order of preference:
Cow, Horse, Pig, Sheep, and Tiger
2. Use one word to describe each of the following:
dog, cat, rat, coffee, and the sea
3. Name one person close to that reminds you of each of the following colors:
Yellow, green, orange, red, and white
4. Favorite number
5. Favorite day of the week

Let's see, I think those were the five questions. So I answered. And below are my results, along w/ the explanations for each question:

1. The first set of animals represents the different things in your life. This is the order of mine: Tiger > Horse > Sheep > Cow > Pig. Now here's the interpretation, Pride > Family > Love > Career > Money. The last 2 are right on the nose priority-wise for me. Anyone who knows me, knows these are probably the two least important...I'm not so sure about pride though, I would think that those aren't as important as Family and Love for me, but hey, i just picked the animals in order of coolness.

2. The second set of animals and descriptions are personality descriptions. And here went mine...
My description of the dog is actually my description of my personality, which is Loyal
The description of the cat implies that my partner is Annoying. Kinda weird, cuz I don't have a partner, he he he, maybe that's why I find her so annoying, cuz she's not there.
My description of the rat implies the personality of my enemies, which is Pesty. I guess this is a goo description.
My description of coffee is how I interpret sex, which is Energizing wooohoo! (I almost said addictive, but I'm not really addicted to coffee)
And my description of the sea implies my own life...Calming - Hmmm...not sure about this one either. I don't really see my life as calming. Crazy and choppy, if anything.

3. The colors...I picked one person in my life that reminded me of each color.
Yellow was my sister...the person I'll never forget. Makes sense.
Orange - someone I consider my true Friend...Chris - that's a no brainer
Red - Someone that you really love - HA, wouldn't you like to know... actually, this one was blank, cuz I had a feeling I knew where it was going.
White - Your twin soul...Iya, that's too funny; cuz that's Chris's wife, and Chris is probably one of the people I would say thinks mostly like me. 2 persons, 1 flesh I guess, he he he.
Green - someone I'll remember for the rest of my life, and that was Mina. Safe to say that this is true. Mina's one of my closest friends, regardless of what she might tell people, ha ha ha.

4 and 5. and the last one, well, that one was just dumb..cuz I had to forward to as many people that my favorite number totaled to, and something will happen on the day I specified as my favorite of the week. Kinda fun, but these "tests" are too funny; it's so abstract. I could probably make one up. But nonetheless, a good time killer when you're in anti-work mode =p

20 Things I Wish I Had Known When Starting Out in Life con't
18. Tequila is seriously evil...
I won’t go into details, but it should suffice to say that I had some bad experiences, and I’m not sure I learned very much from them or benefited in any way except to learn that tequila is the drink of the Devil.

Amen to that...though I won't turn down a shot of Patron or Corolejo every now and then :)

I had some more thinking-type thoughts, but I'll post them next time...

I am one less sneeze...

So I have officially lost 20 lbs.....APRIL FOOL'S! Hmmm, that wasn't so funny. I never really did anything for April fool's...I wonder who the very first fool was, poor guy/gal; to be the reason why this day is what it is. Anyway, i hope no one April fool's me today, that would suck too. I don't really like April fool's, because it sounds kinda mean. To make a fool out of somebody. It seems more than just the regular old prank...which I love to do, he he he. I like to turn over people's office supplies on their desks, put post-its randomly, etc. But not to completely embarrass them, which is the kinda feeling I get from April fool's...oh well...I know I'm just thinking about it too much. Anything to get out of work...which is a whole different type of joke right now...blah.

Mammoth was awesome blossom as usual. Got there Friday night and chilled...and drank with everyone when the rest of the gang got there..went to sleep HELLA late..or rather, early and STILL got up the next morning. We boarded one good day, ate some bomb-diggity food, thanks to the resident bbq'ers, chilled w/ good company, and left early on Sunday. Got home in time to have #1 on my fast food list!!! Woohoo. Chilled for a bit before our Sunday game, where we finally won decisively; kicked butt by a margin of 39 pts, woohoo!

I don't have much to say today...only that I do not want to work. I really don't. But I'm always torn with it, because I don't want to be a complete lazy-ass. Oh decisions decisions...

A tribute to the JabaWockeez. Congrats on winning America's Best Dance crew and thank you for not letting me lose my faith in America's voting system!


20 Things I Wish I Had Known When Starting Out in Life con't
17. Speaking of which, keep a journal. Seriously. Your memory is extremely faulty.
I forget things really easily. Not short-term stuff, but long-term. I don’t remember things about my kids’ early years, because I didn’t record any of it. I don’t remember things about my life. It’s like a lot of foggy memories that I’ll never have access to. I wish I had kept a journal.

There seems to be some confusion about the 2nd paragraph after these things. These are MY comments, he he he. I should've have probably italicized the advice to separate...oh well. I digress, I truly forget things really easily; be it my keys, my beanies, my camera, my ID, my wallet...you name it, I've forgotten it, and had to return to get it, or someone got it for me. Long-term stuff, I remember, but it's tough to remember EVERYTHING. Journals are really cool because you really get to look back into the past. Sometimes, reading an old entry, you could almost go through the same feelings. I would recommend blog for everyday ramblings, and journals for those deeper moments. I haven't written in mine for a good few months...which reminds me that I should make another entry.

"He who laughs last...laughs last..."
-idk